Writer's block. That's what I have right now. I have had it for a pretty long time too.
I am not sure where to put the blame for this either. Not that the blame truly belongs to any person other than myself. In large part law school is to blame, rather obviously. But it is not the sole perpertrator. This year has been a crazy ride that has often left me feeling like what I imagine taking a whole lot of cheap speed leaves you feeling. School with extra credits, part times jobs, not really knowing what next year is going to bring. On top of all this, when I do have free time, I am generally calling people on the phone to have a conversation, rather than writing something on the internet.
I do miss writing more frequently on this blog though. There is something very cathartic about writing for me, something very soothing and calming for my mind in much the same way that reading has a calming effect on me. I have found at many times when I am depressed or anxious or in any way perturbed that if I sit down and read something (law books, unfortunately do not seem to have this effect) I find the experience leaves me very much at ease.
But the thing is-- over the last few months, when I go to write on this blog, I find myself generally wanting to write some sort of broad and grand ode to what it is like to be a third year law student and to finally be getting out of school and blah blah, friggin blah. The reality is I can sum up for you how I feel pretty succintly and it wouldn't take up much of an entry at all: I feel very tired, I feel very burnt out, I feel kind of fat, and I feel like I have drank entirely too much coffee in a short period of time. Honestly, it isn't all that fascinating and I feel like I am whining when I talk about it. On the other hand, I suppose I could tell what lessons I have learned from school, but these things tend to be spontaneous for one thing and for another I am not sure I could tell you what it is that I have learned yet. Like a lot of things I have learned, I really have no idea what I have learned from law school yet.
So- I am not sure what the point of this post was except to explain my not posting. But there it is...and um...we're done.