"I'm Planning a Prison Break..."

Depending on whether I have had the chance to speak to you in the last few weeks, you may or may not be aware of the seeming crisis I encountered in terms of financing the final year of law school.  I won't get into the details, but the bottom line is that something has been figured and with the aid of my part time job, I oughta be able to make it out of here alive and on the original plan of graduating in May.

When I met with the various deans at school I came to find I am one of only a small number of people taking seventeen credits and with the addition of a part time job I find myself pretty busy.  In some ways I am flashing back to first year when I was working full time and going to school, but I honestly think I can say I have matured a certain amount and can handle things a bit better now (plus any law student can tell you the psychological difference between first year and any other year is very significant).

I know I've written about this before on here, but I find myself thinking almost every day now that I have only a little less than a year to go now including the bar exam and I just need to get out.  I have no idea if people feel like this with jobs or not-- I've certainly had jobs I really wanted to leave, but this feels very different.  Even though I can honestlysay I  loved my college, when it was time to graduate I wanted to leave-- this feels very different.  There's no savoring going on here, mostly just a strange concoction of anxiety, dread, and impatience that makes little or no rational sense except to say I fear the bar and I fear getting/doing a real job as a lawyer, but at the same time I am indescribably impatient to get out of law school.  Working as much as someone with a full time job but not getting paid for it isn't terribly rewarding on a day to day basis.  Sure, I'll admit that the ability to not have class till 2 or 3 some days or not at all others sounds nice, but the truth of the matter is that I should be doing work during that time-- and more and more I am realizing I am terminally behind when I don't. 

In some ways it is just another learning experience you don't realize you signed up for when you went to law school-- I know I didn't.  In the past when I was busy there was a sense of overwhelming that I couldn't decipher, but now I feel I at least have a sense of how to strike the balance that is necessary to keep my personal life, maintain good grades, do the part time job, and get all the lose ends that seem to come with law school done.

Comments

[Mister Jinxy]

You said, "musings".

The CPMC doesn't think you're cool.

[thebizofknowledge]

I stumbled across your blog while I was in the process of doing some online research. Speaking as a college instructor, I can tell you that taking seventeen credits in one semester is an amazingly tough load to carry, especially with the addition of a job. Kudos to you!